The battle with self. The first thing that I learned I had to do, once I had decided to walk the path God had chosen for me, was to TRANSFER ownership of my self to God. I was no longer the controller of my being (in the driver’s seat of this luxurious car…a girl can dream…lol; the captain of this ship). This in itself was not easy to do. I made many mistakes and was reprimanded BUT I became more refined after each lesson learned. I learned it was alright to cry and be angry at times. God was truly a PATIENT parent to me during this time. Here are some things I had to give up:
- The prideful feeling of knowing who I was – my characteristics/personality changed
- Who was first place and center in my life – my Mom and family
- My wants/desires
Although it was painful, I did it (still doing it). I am willing to submit to God and become is HUMBLE servant/daughter.