Journey – Uncomfortable

Yes, I am going to say it…God does things that makes me feel uncomfortable (don’t worry I have told Him this already…maybe that is why He is making me write about it). I may also have mentioned this already…if I did, just view it as a recap…I used to love (or take pride in…can’t sugar coat it) certain things about myself; that I was independent and that I was able to give to others. Therefore, I was very comfortable with myself until God decided otherwise. This time he didn’t take me out of a situation but took me out of myself (it really felt like an out-of-body experience or being a stranger to myself). I did A LOT of crying and asking why until I understood it was something He needed to do to prepare me for the next stage of my journey. When I gave up control of me and allowed Him to mold me as he pleased, I began getting to know the new me (it took some time to adjust…still adjusting but making progress, praise God!). SO…I am no longer independent BUT solely dependent on God and I am no longer giving more than receiving but receiving quite a lot (for which I am so thankful). God showed me it is not bad to be dependent on someone else and be a receiver as long as it was according to His will for me.

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Journey – Comfort Zone?

Personally, I do not think that God likes comfort zones very much…correct me if I am wrong, please. Prior to 2012, I was, I must say, quite comfortable with my life, which I thought was a good thing. This “good thing” may actually be a red flag for God. Or it could  be the alarm ringing telling Him that it is time to start the preparation phase (resting/waiting period) for the next task/phase of His plans for me. Thus, the waiting period began with the demolition of my comfort zone, I began to feel uncomfortable with a lot of things, including my own personality. I started to feel like I did not know myself anymore. I am very thankful that God gradually gave me the knowledge, wisdom, and understanding I needed to adjust out of my comfort zone. He is taking away a lot of barriers and boundaries while extending my territory (read Jabez’s prayer in 1 Chronicles 4:10), which is building my trust and faith in Him.

So, while comfort zones may seem like a good thing in the physical realm, they are not so in the spiritual realm. If I want to live my life according to the spiritual realm then I need to be wary of comfort zones.

Journey – Psalm 23 & 123

This is incredibly personal…today I was sharing with my family the amazing things God has done for me while I am in the waiting period and came to a realization that I am a living testimony of Psalm 23 and 123 (please read in free time). I became emotional of course :). During my waiting period, a lot of things were taken away but he gave me peace and comfort. I also learned to depend on him solely and fully. Just think about God reducing your monthly budget by 94%…could you even imagine that happening in these times! And I can tell you that I am not in lack as He provides for every need. In this waiting period (Hillsong’s Oceans [Where Feet May Fail] playing in the background), I may have nothing BUT I have EVERYTHING!!!!!!! 

Do you know why? BECAUSE I AM EVERYTHING TO GOD AS HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME.

Journey – A Confession (Pt. 3)

Romans 10:9 NKJV

that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

The most important confession that I have made with my mouth is that I believe that Jesus is the Son of God, who came to earth, died for my sins, and rose again (He is alive). I believe in God, the Father, Jesus, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. If I had not made these confessions then I would not have been on a journey to my final destination (heaven). I thank God, He accepted my confessions and allowed me to be a part of the family of Christ Jesus.

I hope you will also make your confession today. There is no greater treasure to be found than becoming a child of God, once again.

Journey – A Confession (Pt. 2-1)

It is so amazing how God works things out for me (and others) when I confess my feelings to Him. He NEVER turns away from me. Everything about me (and you) is important to Him. THANK YOU DADDY, for working out all things for my good. You know that I love you dearly. Thank You for accepting my love (my heart), my praise, and my worship.

Don’t be afraid to express Your feelings to God. Even though He already knows your thoughts, He truly appreciates when we use our mouth to confess our sins, emotions, joy , etc. to Him. DO NOT FORGET THAT HE IS SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU AND ME UNCONDITIONALLY, no matter our circumstances.

P.S. Even if things sometimes doesn’t change, it does not mean that God did not hear me or heard but chose not to do anything and let me rot in hell…no, it’s because He cares so much for me and he is working out all things for my good. NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER (read Isaiah 54:17).

Journey – A Confession (Pt. 2)

Recently, there are many things that are making me feel sad. The acts of violence occurring in the world and the inflexibility of people, even though their environment is constantly changing. This sadness makes me feel powerless. No money or power can erase this sadness. It cannot be erased by others or by me. ONLY GOD CAN ERASE MY SADNESS.

When I confess my feelings of sadness to GOD (whether I am consciously or unconsciously aware of the source), I am giving Him authority to erase the sadness from my life. The violence and inflexibility of others  may remain the same (because He has the world in His hands and everything in His plans have to come to fruition) but my reaction will change. When the feelings of sadness arise, I will confess and pray to God for Him to take control of the situation. He has more power to help others than I will ever be able to do. He will supply the financial need and/or a supportive environment where it is needed. So I will pray; that is where my power lies…I am not powerless, after all.

Journey – A Confession (Pt. 1)

From an early age I realized it made no sense to lie to my parents, especially to my mother. My mom had a special relationship with the Holy Spirit wherein she would know things before I even told her…see why it made no sense to lie. This is similar to my relationship with God…since He already knows my thoughts before I am even aware of them (hence, my actions as well) then it made no sense to me to lie or hide things from Him. For me, a lie is a lie (there is no black or white). Even if I told a lie, consciously or unconsciously, to not hurt someone or to get myself out of an unfavorable situation, or even get myself into a favorable situation, it is still a lie and I have to confess it to God. He is so merciful that He will deliver me out of a situation even if I was not 100% honest…maybe because He knows my heart, which pleases Him (I am reminded of King David, here).

My confessions are not only lies but also when I feel tired or hurt while I wait for Him to do something favorable in my life. I try my best not to hide my feelings from Him. If I am unable to express them with words, I cry. I also have a playlist with songs that expresses how I feel beautifully (Thank You, God, for inspiring these artists). For example, MercyMe’s Even If, which tells God even if He should change is mind (which I believe He doesn’t since He knew what I was going to do before I existed) or delays His deliverance, or takes longer in fulfilling His promises to me, I will still place my hope in Him. Another song is by Hillary Scott and The Scott Family Thy Will…this tells Him, even though things haven’t gone the way I had hoped as I am being obedient to You, let Your will be done in my life. Then there is the song that describes my emotions as I am hanging by a thread…Worn by Tenth Avenue North…the title explains it all.

A confession to God alleviates my stress levels and allows me to sleep peacefully at nights. I know it will do the same for you. You and I will be healthier with daily confessions. Therefore, a daily confession to God is not only good for the soul but also your physical and emotional well-being.