To find safety in God’s arms is the most precious thing in my life. It protects me from the enemy within (fear/anxiety) and outside (poverty, health, greed, hate/discrimination, etc.). I had a dream once where I ran into a building to hide from dirty water (seemed like a tsunami) that was coming towards me. When I was in the building, I kept pushing at the door to keep it closed against the flood waters. Then a voice said to me it’s ok, you can let go, it’s closed forever, no harm will come to you. The water was still flowing forcefully outside but I got this sense of peace after those words. That building was the ARK for me…a place of safety (peace, security, or reassurance). I am living my life inside the ARK right now…no matter how I am feeling or my lack, I am protected and no harm will come to me. All God’s promises will be fulfilled in my life, while I reside in the Ark.
Today is a bittersweet day for me. Bitter because you are not next to me, but sweet because I still have our memories together. I have to thank God always that I had you in my life. You taught me a lot and was a source of strength and comfort before you left. I can’t begrudge you leaving though, as you are finally resting. I will be ok as God is still by my side and promises to forever be by my side. You left without any worries and I am very thankful for that. You left continuing to believe with your faith eyes. Even though everything hasn’t been fulfilled as yet…I know they will because I am believing as well with my faith eyes. I will not worry as God’s got this! Love you always HLG.
Not too long ago I watched the animated version of Joseph’s story…I really could relate to it in so many ways. There were a few aspects that stood out though; obedience and prison.
Obedience: Even though Joseph tried his best to be a good and obedient son, he still could not escape the bad things that happened to him.
Prison: Although it took him some time…Joseph learnt to still do his best while in prison. In the movie, there was a dying plant which Joseph tended to diligently until it became a tree.
All my life I have tried my very best to do what is right and be obedient to God. I foolishly thought that this would help me avoid bad things happening to me…like Jonah and the whale. However, these traits were laying a foundation for my imprisonment (a resting place for God to prepare me for His purpose for me). I have learnt to continue doing my best (no matter how simple the task) while in my resting place. I refuse to dwell in frustration, guilt, fear, and pity but see the beauty of what God is doing in my life. Like Joseph, when God chooses to get me out of prison/resting place, I will be placed in a position that is beyond my imagination and it will all be built on a sure foundation.
Recovering from a Job (Bible character) and friends moment…I know friends mean well when they give you advice BUT their advice can also jeopardize your faith. After getting some advice from a friend (no intention of harm), I went into panic mode…did I understand God correctly of what He wanted me to do?…Is it all my imagination? I had to center myself in His word, His track record, and His music. What I am doing may seem to go against all odds and it may not work out…BUT…that is not the point…THE POINT IS THAT I WILL CONTINUE TO BE OBEDIENT. I do not know why He wants me to pursue certain things but He knows and that is all I need to know.
HAPPY MOTHER’S/PARENT DAY!!!
THANK YOU GOD FOR BEING THE BEST PARENT TO US, YOUR CHILDREN!!!!
A few days ago, I had a dream that has been weighing on my heart. In the dream, I did something I knew I wasn’t suppose to do. When I shared the dream with my close friend/older sister, she shared that, to her, the dream meant that no matter what I did God would protect me and never leave me. This did not give me much comfort though, as the dream was symbolizing something God had been working on me for a long time…giving all control to Him. In the dream, it seemed I was taking that control back (even if reluctantly).
This makes me nervous, even more so since I started getting the flashing green light. The bottom line…I do not want to mess things up with God again…although I know He will show mercy and give me His grace…I do not want to be disobedient. So I did what I knew best to do in these anxious situations…I prayed…then I got my comfort and peace.
Even though I really want to embark on the next chapter of this journey (green light)…I have to also be vigilant not to regain the position of being in the driver’s seat. The driver’s seat of my life belongs permanently to God, my Father/DADDY.
Yes, there is a flashing green light before the steady green light. The good news is that God is allowing me to now see His works in motion…I am no longer in the waiting room…my name was called and I am now heading to His office to receive my mission…Hallelujah!!!
The flashing green light is also an anxious moment for me as I do not want to get in God’s way…not wanting to be disobedient or hasty. So I have to continue to be vigilant (while praying without ceasing, with thanksgiving) as I remain hopeful and allow my faith to grow.
The flashing green light is like the flickering of light you see when walking towards the end of the tunnel. Thank You, DADDY, for being with me while I was in the tunnel, for helping me to be obedient, hopeful, and faithful. Thank You for being my sword and shield, my provider, and my bestfriend. I know You will remain the same to me (never changing, ever faithful) outside of the tunnel (steady green light).
Hello 2018!!!! First post for the new year.
Lately, I have been reflecting on the last 3 years…Am I here because I lost my way? Where did I go wrong? Was I being disobedient at any time? Am I being punished? How can I get back on the right track? Why am I being left behind? Am I forgotten? Why did you leave? Why didn’t I get that position? If things had gone how I wanted them to, then would things have worked out differently/better for me?
Thankfully, God gave me the answer to all these questions. For the last 3 years, I have not lost my way…I was finding my way. It was about not what I wanted for myself BUT what He wanted for me. This path I am walking on (although it may seem different from yours) is one that was chosen for me by my FATHER, who loves me dearly and wants the best for me. With the green light flashing…another stage in this journey is about to begin…where I will walk and not become weary and run and not faint…because I went through this process of finding my way well.