Journey – Losing or Finding My Way?

Hello 2018!!!! First post for the new year.

Lately, I have been reflecting on the last 3 years…Am I here because I lost my way? Where did I go wrong? Was I being disobedient at any time? Am I being punished? How can I get back on the right track? Why am I being left behind? Am I forgotten? Why did you leave? Why didn’t I get that position? If things had gone how I wanted them to, then would things have worked out differently/better for me?

Thankfully, God gave me the answer to all these questions. For the last 3 years, I have not lost my way…I was finding my way. It was about not what I wanted for myself BUT what He wanted for me. This path I am walking on (although it may seem different from yours) is one that was chosen for me by my FATHER, who loves me dearly and wants the best for me. With the green light flashing…another stage in this journey is about to begin…where I will walk and not become weary and run and not faint…because I went through this process of finding my way well.

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Journey – Comfortable

Even though God may do things that makes me feel uncomfortable, He is also my source of comfort. In my younger years, I always wanted someone to accompany me to places. However, I was most times…or always…forced to go alone (“You came into the world alone…lol..:( ). Not surprisingly, I started getting use to being alone. Was I really alone though? NO, I wasn’t…I had always asked God to go with me. A recent reflection brought this to my attention. I have been to new places, experienced some new and painful things…through it all I was alone but never alone. The faith and trust I placed in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit were my source of comfort. They made me feel very comfortable. For me, this sense of comfort is synonymous to peace. I am peaceful/comfortable in the midst of chaos or uncertainty.

Thank You, DADDY, for being my permanent source of comfort. Jeremiah 29:11 KJV

For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

With this knowledge, how can I not be at peace or be comfortable. NOTHING IS A SURPRISE TO HIM, who loves me.

Journey – Comfort Zone?

Personally, I do not think that God likes comfort zones very much…correct me if I am wrong, please. Prior to 2012, I was, I must say, quite comfortable with my life, which I thought was a good thing. This “good thing” may actually be a red flag for God. Or it could  be the alarm ringing telling Him that it is time to start the preparation phase (resting/waiting period) for the next task/phase of His plans for me. Thus, the waiting period began with the demolition of my comfort zone, I began to feel uncomfortable with a lot of things, including my own personality. I started to feel like I did not know myself anymore. I am very thankful that God gradually gave me the knowledge, wisdom, and understanding I needed to adjust out of my comfort zone. He is taking away a lot of barriers and boundaries while extending my territory (read Jabez’s prayer in 1 Chronicles 4:10), which is building my trust and faith in Him.

So, while comfort zones may seem like a good thing in the physical realm, they are not so in the spiritual realm. If I want to live my life according to the spiritual realm then I need to be wary of comfort zones.

Journey – Armor (Pt. 5)

Shield of Faith: Ephesians 6: 16 (NKJV) “above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one.”

If you like to watch movies like Braveheart or read historical romance books (avid reader), you may see or imagine shields being penetrated by some strong arrows.  If you like to watch modern action films, you may even see some bulletproof vests or car windows being penetrated by some high-powered guns or rifles. However, the shield of faith is impenetrable. I am trusting the shield of faith to always protect me. Yes, the wicked one may know what God may have planned for me and may set traps to derail His plans BUT, as long as I have this piece of armor, I will not fear and His plans for me will not be derailed. This is the source of my confidence and courage. So each day I shall be confident and be courageous, even if it may seem the world or my world is coming to an end (or is filled with chaos and uncertainties), that God’s perfect plans for me will be fulfilled.

Journey – The Dawn

The dawn signifies the beginning of a new journey, a new day, a new season, and an end to the darkness. To know I am at the dawn stage of my journey in life is what I have patiently waited to hear from God. I am about to leave the waiting room and answer to my name being called. It is my appointed time…I wonder if you can feel my nervous excitement! My dark days are over; I am exiting the tunnel…glory hallelujah!!! It is the time of jubilee (Days of Elijah)!!!

Growth – The Tunnel

Daniel 3:17 NKJV

“If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king.

The tunnel is the place I have been for more than a year; naked, cold, and separated from others. It’s a place where I learned to trust God more and more.  He provided for all my needs and kept me from harm.  

The tunnel was a place I could not avoid, no matter how much I may have wanted to do so. At this time, I was reminded of Jonah. Just like the fiery furnace and the lion’s den, the tunnel is not here to harm me but to prepare me for a better place. At the end of the tunnel, like Job, whatever was lost will be replaced tenfold. So, DO NOT BE AFRAID OF YOUR TUNNEL!

I am now walking up the steps to get out of the tunnel…HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!

Growth – Ocean Deep

After my mom died a year ago, I have felt as if I was drowning in an ocean of unknown.  I did not know the next steps to take after completing one journey.  The journey of unknown was paved with pain, anxiety, self-doubt, grief, loneliness, and struggle (esp. financially).  Nevertheless, I had a very good friend that accompanied me along this journey; the Holy Spirit.  Even though I went back to the beginning where I had nothing, He comforted me and told me to REST.  He provided for me daily in every way.  I have also learned to float by relaxing my body despite the being in the ocean.  Consequently, I am at peace with the way things are because I know it is part of God’s plan for me.  He is setting a foundation that will never be moved as the appointed time for me to be called into the office from the waiting room draws near.  When He calls my name, I will no longer float on the surface of the ocean BUT I will be walking on water with my eyes focused solely on Him.  At that time He will be taking me from glory to glory.

When you have the time, take a listen to Hillsong’s Ocean (Where Feet May Fail).  You can find it on YouTube or Spotify.